The next scary step.

  "When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then, you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there's no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?"

So. I mentioned last week that I applied for a job back in Windsor with the same company that I think could be a serious step in my career. After two years of being challenged everyday I have discovered so much about myself (ok side note Girls Just Wanna Have fun is playing in the taxi as I ride home and I am trying so hard to not sing along... Side note finished back to business) and one of the things I have learned is that I am truly proud of my career this far in my life. Now most would say this is a normal reaction that anyone that has been working for some time would have. But honestly if you had asked me a few years ago what my goals career wise were  I would have probably looked you in the eyes and said "I have no idea, find me a rich man and I'll figure the rest out..." Yes, I realize how that sounds and maybe it's a bit exaggerated and although I should be embarassed to admit it - I'm not. Because for me I think about it and it makes how I feel now even more valid and important. Now I can't even breathe when I think about not working (that doesn't mean I want to be a crazy, work 80 hours a week, have no life kind of girl) I truly enjoy challenging myself and seeing what I can build my own expectations to. I won't lie and say I want to take over the entire organization (even though I'm pretty sure I'd be awesome at it, insert evil laugh here) but I want to see what's next and where that could lead me... I mean Paris isn't a bad pay out for working hard and taking lots of pride in what I do. So Thursday I'll have that first step to take my next challenge. That job that I applied for had now become the job interview I am preparing for. 

Yikes!! I'm nervous and excited and I'm 87%sure I'm ready to make this next move... Yes not 100% but 87%... The truth is the choice to move my life back to the US is scary. I miss so much about it but now I'll just have to miss my life here and can't deny it my life here is pretty awesome!! What if I get back and realize I'm supposed to be here? What if I don't go and realize that I should have? So many unknowns and so many what if's ... And none of those ???'s can be answered until I move in the direction that comes my way. So at this point only time and a phone interview can tell what direction that might be. So keep your fingers crossed and I'll keep you posted. 

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